Yes, when the mood hits... blog away.

Very glad to announce that yours truly have passed the gruelling phase where other people's opinion matter so much to me that I lose myself and measure my worth by their 'standard'. Now, sure I'll listen and thank you for taking time to let me know your view. I'll file it for future reference. It's not being rude, just that I'm over it. Period. If I'm certain of the effort & extra care put in yet mistakes still happen, tough sh*t. Yet it always seem to come to this juncture, where redeeming myself seems futile... then again, I have to move on.

A new environment does things to you. Makes you treasure true relationships more, rather than waste time cultivating hollow ones. That's how I see it for now. Perhaps it's age catching up or the Aquarius in me that is still resisting change.

Am I happy? Unfortunately, no. Life has finally struck me a significant blow, and more is to be expected. This period for me is the pits. It's true, for the first time in the longest time. I thought the worst had already happened, but maybe that wasn't the bottom. The unhappiness is not caused by work or any person... yet it could be both and it's been suppressed too long.

I used to be cynical and harsh on other people, yet lenient and frivolous towards myself. Time to pay the price.