Go check this one out:-
http://www.realitytvworld.com/index/articles/summary.php?i=589
Just some whiny b*#%tard' s comments about the finale of the recently-ended The Amazing Race.
Funny how sporting people in a competition are described as quote unquote 'a horseshoe up their a$$'. Geeeez.
Love the one about aspiring-lifestyle-travel-programe-host-wannabe Kendra about her 'travelogues'... sic, and the one about Jonathan and Victoria, and the one about MaryRebecca and MaryAdam *LOL*
Oh, just go read it~!!
Monday, February 28, 2005
Sometimes, a person desperately wants to know about certain aspect of his/her life, those aspects that do not seem so obvious. I guess that is the main reason why some people choose various ways to cull this curiosity, through tarot cards, ouija board, peeling a red apple in a perfect spiral in front of the mirror, visiting the temple and the most common would be those paperback astrology/zodiac guides.
Hey, I'm not saying I'm never curious about them. I do thumb through them once in a while, if I happen to see them lying around blatantly at my designated area of work. Of the above, I'm guilty of flipping through the last item, and almost succumbed to the first by contemplating of buying a set. Yes, I am thoroughly ashamed of myself. Deep inside, I think the stars ARE attuned to our lives in some ways.
And about ten minutes ago, I just purchased a zodiac report and the results indicate that I'm most suited to be with a Virgo. I'm still reading through, so I'll drop a few results further on. Of course, I'm not going to cozy up to friends whom I know ( and I do not, actually) who are Virgos because of the results. Blayuck.
I've always known myself to be impatient, and as such, I tend to want answers immediately, if not as soon as possible. I'm willing to wait, but my interest wanes as time goes by. In the past, I was strangely and eagerly curious about this aspect of my life called romantic relationship. The environment that I was in didn't help, because my peers were either attached or have someone wooing them. For me, I had neither. The impulse and curiosity to want to know 'how it is like being in a relationship' began to gnaw at me.
Hm, this is starting to sound like 'confessions of a still-single woman-child with no point to prove as usual'. I am not abandoning my faith, of course. It is just a part of me that needs some affirmation of some kind, and I know this is as frivolous and flippant as it can get. This is not going to get me hooked on astrology or zodiac books. It is just for fun, as they say.
Of course, beneath every seemingly off-handed and spur-of-the-moment action lies something that is more realistic and sober, and I don't deny it. I do wonder if I'm ever going to get attached, and how the process is going to be like. I wonder about such things, as how some people wonder about their next boyfriend/girlfriend. Perhaps it is the age issue. Is this my pre-quarter-life crisis? I'm still two years shy of it, but it seems that I have serious matters to grapple with at this age ( like having a job, for one). This is not a serious matter. Maybe when I am 30 and typing a blog entry of similar content, yeah...That is a damn serious matter. Red alert. Sound the alarms.
Cirrus and I had a chat on our way home two days ago. I mentioned about a certain section in one of her blog entry, the one that sums up as 'living and dying in Singapore'. We both agreed that the made-for-Singaporean path isn't something we want to take: go to school, graduate, find a job, find a partner, settle down, have children, plan for children's future, plan for retirement, plan for old age, plan to die.... The both of us groaned at the mention of it.
It seems so easy to fall into it and once you're in it, that's it. Venturing out of Singapore isn't something you want to consider, because (1) you have a family to support and (2) you don't want to risk stability.
I know the flak I'll get from some people, who would think I'm way too idealistic and naive for Singapore and I should go ahead and try 'the road less travelled'. Please pardon my thinking, because I haven't tasted the hardship that prevents one from taking that road yet.
I could be exuding certain vibes that's screaming 'This person does not want stability' or 'I want a partner for purely societal reasons' or some other reasons.. hm, I should do something about it.
Hey, I'm not saying I'm never curious about them. I do thumb through them once in a while, if I happen to see them lying around blatantly at my designated area of work. Of the above, I'm guilty of flipping through the last item, and almost succumbed to the first by contemplating of buying a set. Yes, I am thoroughly ashamed of myself. Deep inside, I think the stars ARE attuned to our lives in some ways.
And about ten minutes ago, I just purchased a zodiac report and the results indicate that I'm most suited to be with a Virgo. I'm still reading through, so I'll drop a few results further on. Of course, I'm not going to cozy up to friends whom I know ( and I do not, actually) who are Virgos because of the results. Blayuck.
I've always known myself to be impatient, and as such, I tend to want answers immediately, if not as soon as possible. I'm willing to wait, but my interest wanes as time goes by. In the past, I was strangely and eagerly curious about this aspect of my life called romantic relationship. The environment that I was in didn't help, because my peers were either attached or have someone wooing them. For me, I had neither. The impulse and curiosity to want to know 'how it is like being in a relationship' began to gnaw at me.
Hm, this is starting to sound like 'confessions of a still-single woman-child with no point to prove as usual'. I am not abandoning my faith, of course. It is just a part of me that needs some affirmation of some kind, and I know this is as frivolous and flippant as it can get. This is not going to get me hooked on astrology or zodiac books. It is just for fun, as they say.
Of course, beneath every seemingly off-handed and spur-of-the-moment action lies something that is more realistic and sober, and I don't deny it. I do wonder if I'm ever going to get attached, and how the process is going to be like. I wonder about such things, as how some people wonder about their next boyfriend/girlfriend. Perhaps it is the age issue. Is this my pre-quarter-life crisis? I'm still two years shy of it, but it seems that I have serious matters to grapple with at this age ( like having a job, for one). This is not a serious matter. Maybe when I am 30 and typing a blog entry of similar content, yeah...That is a damn serious matter. Red alert. Sound the alarms.
Cirrus and I had a chat on our way home two days ago. I mentioned about a certain section in one of her blog entry, the one that sums up as 'living and dying in Singapore'. We both agreed that the made-for-Singaporean path isn't something we want to take: go to school, graduate, find a job, find a partner, settle down, have children, plan for children's future, plan for retirement, plan for old age, plan to die.... The both of us groaned at the mention of it.
It seems so easy to fall into it and once you're in it, that's it. Venturing out of Singapore isn't something you want to consider, because (1) you have a family to support and (2) you don't want to risk stability.
I know the flak I'll get from some people, who would think I'm way too idealistic and naive for Singapore and I should go ahead and try 'the road less travelled'. Please pardon my thinking, because I haven't tasted the hardship that prevents one from taking that road yet.
I could be exuding certain vibes that's screaming 'This person does not want stability' or 'I want a partner for purely societal reasons' or some other reasons.. hm, I should do something about it.
Saturday, February 26, 2005
I completely forgot about the hot issue of intellectual property, and went ahead putting the song on the blog. For the fear of my pants being sued off, I have taken the song out. Better be safe than sorry. Those of you guys who have songs on your blog, yeah I know, it's nice to have your favorite songs but there's the legal issue you guys should think about. Maybe I'm just being a scardy-cat, but you know... the people tracking the IP stuff are the ones I don't want to deal with.
I don't know about some of you, but the younger people these days are really something. There, I did it. I manage to type something that will solidify my status as a 'older' person without cringing or gagging. That is good news, because I have finally accepted my adulthood and perhaps maturity.
On to the topic about the youngsters these days. What are they thinking these days, is what I want to know. It seems like more and more of them are easily manipulated and affected, not to mention brain-washed, by the information various print media has to offer. Does it matter that much what Paris Hilton is (not) wearing? Does it really matter how long Britney Spears' marriage is going to last? I mean, I come to the store almost daily, and I'm bound to see or hear some young person talking in a faux American/Australian/Caucasian (huh?) accent about stuff you probably read about in the toilet?
I don't know, but it is frightening to know that if their lives seems to contain largely such and similar things. These are like their daily input. It's like the level of 'hanging out in shopping malls after school' is upped so much in their time...
I know I sound like a prude, and I'll admit I am. In the first place, why do I even bother talking about such things? It's brought about something my colleague mentioned, how 2 newbies at work are complaining that they are being slave-driven. I was speechless. Maybe I was brought up not to complain and work hard, and that's not a bad thing, is it? I see what they are doing, and it is no different from what I did when I first came. What do they expect to do in the bookstore? Sit around and look pretty? It's part time work for you, so you work. Period.
That really riled me up. It's ridiculous. Their threshold for pain and suffering is nonexistent, not to mention respect of fellow human kind. I'm not even going to talk about consideration and sensibility on their part.
I am annoyed by their attitude, and I feel indignant too. Of course, who am I to judge? When it's plain to see, I don't think I'm judging at all. Maybe all of us are too living too comfortably now, to the extent that we are not willing or prepared to put ourselves in any situation that is anything but. If the bigger picture for thie generation is to get out there and make ourselves known to the rest of the world, it's going to take some time. A long, long time.
For the record, there are the ones who don't think the world owes them a living and to them, I give my deepest respect and admiration. I'm very happy and glad to say I know some of these people, and it is from them that I, too, learned something. All of us gain something from each other. Each of them comes with different background and yet they are the ones who are unafraid of something new or different, keep a open mind, and willing to just give it a try. Of course in the process, it might embarass or make them look like fools, but I know these are the same people who will laugh about it at the end of the day, then learn a lesson from it.
I don't know about some of you, but the younger people these days are really something. There, I did it. I manage to type something that will solidify my status as a 'older' person without cringing or gagging. That is good news, because I have finally accepted my adulthood and perhaps maturity.
On to the topic about the youngsters these days. What are they thinking these days, is what I want to know. It seems like more and more of them are easily manipulated and affected, not to mention brain-washed, by the information various print media has to offer. Does it matter that much what Paris Hilton is (not) wearing? Does it really matter how long Britney Spears' marriage is going to last? I mean, I come to the store almost daily, and I'm bound to see or hear some young person talking in a faux American/Australian/Caucasian (huh?) accent about stuff you probably read about in the toilet?
I don't know, but it is frightening to know that if their lives seems to contain largely such and similar things. These are like their daily input. It's like the level of 'hanging out in shopping malls after school' is upped so much in their time...
I know I sound like a prude, and I'll admit I am. In the first place, why do I even bother talking about such things? It's brought about something my colleague mentioned, how 2 newbies at work are complaining that they are being slave-driven. I was speechless. Maybe I was brought up not to complain and work hard, and that's not a bad thing, is it? I see what they are doing, and it is no different from what I did when I first came. What do they expect to do in the bookstore? Sit around and look pretty? It's part time work for you, so you work. Period.
That really riled me up. It's ridiculous. Their threshold for pain and suffering is nonexistent, not to mention respect of fellow human kind. I'm not even going to talk about consideration and sensibility on their part.
I am annoyed by their attitude, and I feel indignant too. Of course, who am I to judge? When it's plain to see, I don't think I'm judging at all. Maybe all of us are too living too comfortably now, to the extent that we are not willing or prepared to put ourselves in any situation that is anything but. If the bigger picture for thie generation is to get out there and make ourselves known to the rest of the world, it's going to take some time. A long, long time.
For the record, there are the ones who don't think the world owes them a living and to them, I give my deepest respect and admiration. I'm very happy and glad to say I know some of these people, and it is from them that I, too, learned something. All of us gain something from each other. Each of them comes with different background and yet they are the ones who are unafraid of something new or different, keep a open mind, and willing to just give it a try. Of course in the process, it might embarass or make them look like fools, but I know these are the same people who will laugh about it at the end of the day, then learn a lesson from it.
Wednesday, February 23, 2005
Friday, February 18, 2005
Responsibility and what it takes
I always wondered, and still am wondering, about what goes through the minds of the people who happened upon my blog. There's going to be the usual 'she/he thinks she's/he's so interesting', 'trying to sound intellectual/smart/intelligent but failing completely', 'egomanic', 'waste of space and bigger waste of my precious time', 'does she/he have a life?'... At least these are some of the comments that I haboured (hehehe) when I read some blogs I happened upon. Rest assured, the names under Linkages, it's not anyone of you. What a relief, huh?
You see, sometimes I'm inspired to just type something that is insightful, but halfway through, I get off track and simply stray.
Okay, now I got them back. Had two plans for this half of the year. Either a trip to Australia or get a pet. Both which I think are long overdued and shelved, due to cashflow issues.
The pet idea came when I was watching Animal Planet three days straight after waking up (minus cleaning up), and in particular the series called 'Emergency Vets'. The show is about vets in a local vet clinic handling injured pets on a daily basis. It made me realize that God created animals too, and there's got to be one that belongs to you. I then looked around my house, and saw that it needs something....alive. My dad keeps fish, but you know the story about fish as pets. There won't be any communication going on.
While I am aware that this could be an impulse decision, and keeping a pet can never be on impulse (it's selfish and cruel), I decided to educate myself on pet keeping first before em-barking (hehehe) on a trip to SPCA. Adopting a pet seems like the way for me, at least. Economically, it's a better idea and practicality is assured as all the necessary procedures (microchipping,shots etc) will be taken care of. Also, I think the SPCA people will do an assessment on me as to whether I'm ready to become a 'parent'. It's a life-long thing, keeping a pet. Well, pure breed or not, it's not really an issue with me. I'm not going to have a shop selling pets anyway.
As for the long overdued trip, I've decided, just a second ago, to shelf it. Again. Actually, it's just an excuse for me to get out of Singapore. For the shelf part, I never actually planned for one anyway. Besides, excuses come along the way when you need to back up something that's excessive and un-required.
So yes...this pet project of mine will start tomorrow. Research is important, but more important would be the actual care of the pet and that needs alot of work.
The next entry will be on names :D
I always wondered, and still am wondering, about what goes through the minds of the people who happened upon my blog. There's going to be the usual 'she/he thinks she's/he's so interesting', 'trying to sound intellectual/smart/intelligent but failing completely', 'egomanic', 'waste of space and bigger waste of my precious time', 'does she/he have a life?'... At least these are some of the comments that I haboured (hehehe) when I read some blogs I happened upon. Rest assured, the names under Linkages, it's not anyone of you. What a relief, huh?
You see, sometimes I'm inspired to just type something that is insightful, but halfway through, I get off track and simply stray.
Okay, now I got them back. Had two plans for this half of the year. Either a trip to Australia or get a pet. Both which I think are long overdued and shelved, due to cashflow issues.
The pet idea came when I was watching Animal Planet three days straight after waking up (minus cleaning up), and in particular the series called 'Emergency Vets'. The show is about vets in a local vet clinic handling injured pets on a daily basis. It made me realize that God created animals too, and there's got to be one that belongs to you. I then looked around my house, and saw that it needs something....alive. My dad keeps fish, but you know the story about fish as pets. There won't be any communication going on.
While I am aware that this could be an impulse decision, and keeping a pet can never be on impulse (it's selfish and cruel), I decided to educate myself on pet keeping first before em-barking (hehehe) on a trip to SPCA. Adopting a pet seems like the way for me, at least. Economically, it's a better idea and practicality is assured as all the necessary procedures (microchipping,shots etc) will be taken care of. Also, I think the SPCA people will do an assessment on me as to whether I'm ready to become a 'parent'. It's a life-long thing, keeping a pet. Well, pure breed or not, it's not really an issue with me. I'm not going to have a shop selling pets anyway.
As for the long overdued trip, I've decided, just a second ago, to shelf it. Again. Actually, it's just an excuse for me to get out of Singapore. For the shelf part, I never actually planned for one anyway. Besides, excuses come along the way when you need to back up something that's excessive and un-required.
So yes...this pet project of mine will start tomorrow. Research is important, but more important would be the actual care of the pet and that needs alot of work.
The next entry will be on names :D
Wednesday, February 16, 2005
Can one actually get used to doing nothing at all? If I have to take stock, I'm technically not doing nothing. I've got my part time. I have some income coming in, though not that much that my dad can not work. I've got time to myself. It is a fair balance of having something to do and also time for myself.
So why am I still feeling lost? Is it self-induced? Highly possible.
In terms of job search, I have made some progress. That is, whenever people ask me what I want to do, I can finally tell them something in THIS area of work. So when I look out for job openings now, it's easier. However, I do foresee other issues
Funny how it all makes sense when you see them typed out. Give you a sense of security, like 'see, your situation is not all that bad'.
Noah, if you're reading this... All I want to say is: Adulthood is hitting you only now?? Where were you for the past few years then? Heheh, I guess better late than never.
Okay, onward. Job search has never been more 'defined' than this. For me at least.
So why am I still feeling lost? Is it self-induced? Highly possible.
In terms of job search, I have made some progress. That is, whenever people ask me what I want to do, I can finally tell them something in THIS area of work. So when I look out for job openings now, it's easier. However, I do foresee other issues
Funny how it all makes sense when you see them typed out. Give you a sense of security, like 'see, your situation is not all that bad'.
Noah, if you're reading this... All I want to say is: Adulthood is hitting you only now?? Where were you for the past few years then? Heheh, I guess better late than never.
Okay, onward. Job search has never been more 'defined' than this. For me at least.
Sunday, February 06, 2005
Dear all... In view of the up and coming Chinese New Year, today's topic will be about red packets ( more commonly known as 'ang pow' ). And to that, I must add that red packets these days are looking more and more designer-like. Talk about texture and feel and none of those shiny stuff that gets on your fingers and eventually your face... None of that now. They look really ( for the lack of a better word, yes I should go go read up the dictionary some time) designer.
Before I start to look silly *sheepish grin*, back to the topic. The main issue on the topic of red packets is: When Do You Actually Stop Receiving Red Packets From Your Elders? By right, there isn't any stipulated laws in the Chinese tradition court that actually states a particular number. By and large, most people believe that when you are married, that is when you stop receiving and start giving. The modern view towards it, however, is that... okay, there's none as far as I know. People do not stop receiving red packets, even though they have their own income. They probably won't go: "Ah ma (ah gong, or both), it's ok. I big already, no need to take ang pow. You keep for yourself." They will still take, because first, it is respectful to elders (only this time of the year they show respect to their elders..) and secondly, since their elders are giving, 'I might as well take'. Last of all, 'Chinese new year mah, don't take like so funny.' Even if you're 35.
As kids, we enjoy the surprise and the togetherness when we cousins gather somewhere with no adults nearby and try to peek into the ang pow to see how much we get. At that time, it's always a secret as to how much you got. But as we got older, it became 'tell lah, so old already. Think I will get jealous meh?'. So foolishly you tell. However, as age catches up, you become perceptive of people and their body language, and you know at once it's a mistake to divulge your ang pow value.
To me, kids will always enjoy Chinese New Year. But for children these days, I'm not too sure though. They are way too spoilt, as far as I'm concerned. For me, I enjoyed my childhood Chinese New Year tremendously. Whether it's going down to Chinatown to soak in the atmosphere, or just sitting in the car looking out of the window at the decor, or go house visiting (I especially enjoyed the trips to Malaysia most of all), I love them all. It's only during such occasions that makes you want to really spend time with family and friends.
Best wishes for the new lunar year, one and all.
Before I start to look silly *sheepish grin*, back to the topic. The main issue on the topic of red packets is: When Do You Actually Stop Receiving Red Packets From Your Elders? By right, there isn't any stipulated laws in the Chinese tradition court that actually states a particular number. By and large, most people believe that when you are married, that is when you stop receiving and start giving. The modern view towards it, however, is that... okay, there's none as far as I know. People do not stop receiving red packets, even though they have their own income. They probably won't go: "Ah ma (ah gong, or both), it's ok. I big already, no need to take ang pow. You keep for yourself." They will still take, because first, it is respectful to elders (only this time of the year they show respect to their elders..) and secondly, since their elders are giving, 'I might as well take'. Last of all, 'Chinese new year mah, don't take like so funny.' Even if you're 35.
As kids, we enjoy the surprise and the togetherness when we cousins gather somewhere with no adults nearby and try to peek into the ang pow to see how much we get. At that time, it's always a secret as to how much you got. But as we got older, it became 'tell lah, so old already. Think I will get jealous meh?'. So foolishly you tell. However, as age catches up, you become perceptive of people and their body language, and you know at once it's a mistake to divulge your ang pow value.
To me, kids will always enjoy Chinese New Year. But for children these days, I'm not too sure though. They are way too spoilt, as far as I'm concerned. For me, I enjoyed my childhood Chinese New Year tremendously. Whether it's going down to Chinatown to soak in the atmosphere, or just sitting in the car looking out of the window at the decor, or go house visiting (I especially enjoyed the trips to Malaysia most of all), I love them all. It's only during such occasions that makes you want to really spend time with family and friends.
Best wishes for the new lunar year, one and all.
Tuesday, February 01, 2005
Quiz This !!!
Got addicted just recently to this quiz site... more will come.
Cocktail
?? Which Alcoholic Drink Are You ??
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Roxane, if you are reading this, this one is for you baby~!~! :D
Got addicted just recently to this quiz site... more will come.
Cocktail
?? Which Alcoholic Drink Are You ??
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Roxane, if you are reading this, this one is for you baby~!~! :D
Another year passes....
And what an eventful year it had been. I guess whenever one's birthday comes along, the only thought would be: what have I accomplished so far? I ask myself that always and every year on my birthday, I won't have the answer. This year, however, I do have an answer, and there's more than one.
For one, I'm done with school. The end of my academic life is the first pit-stop of my life, and the next journey I'm about to go on to is, Adulthood. Which entails work, as in for a living and to support those who had brought up up. I realized how selfish I had been despite having a part time job. I realized that in conjuction with the thought that my father is aging and a part time job is not enough to support both of us. Actually, I am excited about Adulthood. It brings so much more into perspective. Naivety, for one, is one character I hope to eradicate. How does one go about eradicating something that is seemingly of a good nature? Lack of knowledge seems to work against me. That's my result. I'm like Morpheus.
Morpheus
?? Which Of The Greek Gods Are You ??
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Somehow, that did not excite me. It describes one as flighty, head in the clouds, always thinking and not really 'there'... you know what I mean?
I know I'm searching for something. There is a goal specially for me somewhere in the big out there, and I'm searching. It gets tiring. And all the baggage I have put upong myself isn't helping.
Adulthood... is it another word for piling responsibilities on yourself just because you think you can handle it? What if you can't? What if it gets too overwhelming? Are you going to give up?
There I go again, thinking about stuff that will get me nowhere. I need a job fast. Just so my current state of mind can rest and be programmed into routine. Yes, I escaped acdemia just so that I can get a life of routine. I'm indeed a product of the education system here.
And what an eventful year it had been. I guess whenever one's birthday comes along, the only thought would be: what have I accomplished so far? I ask myself that always and every year on my birthday, I won't have the answer. This year, however, I do have an answer, and there's more than one.
For one, I'm done with school. The end of my academic life is the first pit-stop of my life, and the next journey I'm about to go on to is, Adulthood. Which entails work, as in for a living and to support those who had brought up up. I realized how selfish I had been despite having a part time job. I realized that in conjuction with the thought that my father is aging and a part time job is not enough to support both of us. Actually, I am excited about Adulthood. It brings so much more into perspective. Naivety, for one, is one character I hope to eradicate. How does one go about eradicating something that is seemingly of a good nature? Lack of knowledge seems to work against me. That's my result. I'm like Morpheus.
Morpheus
?? Which Of The Greek Gods Are You ??
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Somehow, that did not excite me. It describes one as flighty, head in the clouds, always thinking and not really 'there'... you know what I mean?
I know I'm searching for something. There is a goal specially for me somewhere in the big out there, and I'm searching. It gets tiring. And all the baggage I have put upong myself isn't helping.
Adulthood... is it another word for piling responsibilities on yourself just because you think you can handle it? What if you can't? What if it gets too overwhelming? Are you going to give up?
There I go again, thinking about stuff that will get me nowhere. I need a job fast. Just so my current state of mind can rest and be programmed into routine. Yes, I escaped acdemia just so that I can get a life of routine. I'm indeed a product of the education system here.
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