Let's go back
Back to the beginning
Back to when the earth, the sun, the stars all aligned

'Cause perfect didn't feel so perfect
Trying to fit a square into a circle
Was no lie
I defy

[Chorus]
Let the rain fall down
And wake my dreams
Let it wash away
My sanity
'Cause I wanna feel the thunder
I wanna scream
Let the rain fall down
I'm coming clean, I'm coming clean

I'm shedding
Shedding every color
Trying to find a pigment of truth
Beneath my skin

'Cause different
Doesn't feel so different
And going out is better
Then always staying in
Feel the wind

[Repeat Chorus]

I'm coming clean
Let the rain fall
Let the rain fall
I'm coming clean

[Repeat Chorus]
Let's go back
Back to the beginning

Hilary Duff, Come Clean
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I must confess: I have a guilty pleasure. It is quite embarassing, but anyway. It is MTV's Laguna Beach: The Real O.C.

There, I've said it.

It IS something like The O.C, set in a beach-side community but filmed like the rest of the reality TV shows. At one point, I was confused. It could be going in the direction of MTV's other hit reality-based series Real World, but I've never seen Real World before.

It is completely the way I like my weekend shows to be like: brainless. In LB, there is the token female lead, she's Lauren or LC. She is blonde, not half bad-looking (like most blondes), is the kind of girl Marissa is but without the crazy parents, or ex-parents... Then, there is her token best friend/confidante called Lo.

Of course, the token male who she secretly likes but is the boyfriend of a flirty girl Kristin (you don't need to be a neurosurgeon to know she's often and always at odds with LC), called Steven.

From the few episodes that I manage to catch so far, Steven hangs out with a guy called Trey who, in the most recent episode that I've caught (a few hours ago), designs caps. Yes, caps. The kind with mesh covering at the back. They do look kind of cool.

Seriously, Steven doesn't even look half as cool as Trey. He's..... blank. Really. He's cute and all, but that's it. And in the recent episode, I think he patch things up with Kristin, which means that they actually broke up before.

I mean, seriously, why bother patching up? I'm sure LC is readily available.

Besides, Kristin is like this flirty mean girl who bitches about LC over coffee with her equally mean friends. In a previous episode, she actually commented that you don't really need brains to go into fashion school, which LC, Steven and Trey had enrolled in.

See, isn't she mean?

If she meant LC, fine then. But not when her so-called boyfriend is in the clique too. That just makes her seem flighty and really...brainless. Like Steven.

But she could be insecure about herself, onsidering the fact that LC has never made any mean comment (maybe I did not catch her saying it) and that she likes to hang around other 'cute' boys when Steven is not around. Such typical mean girl-brat.

Before I continue, I have to say again: This is my guilty pleasure. Considering I cannot catch The O.C when I get home, this is my only ruse to drift away a while from the real world and into brainless mindless reality shows like that.

I cannot use this language of fools to communicate with you.
The things that you say to mark the time of the day are calculated to bemuse.
And hey yeah ...hey hey yeah

Won't you hide me, won't you hold my life, let me have this time.
And lie here while I close my eyes, hold me through this night.

One good day will lead the way for another, my love.
Living here things are never so clear you discover my love,
And hey yeah ...hey hey yeah.

Won't you hide me, won't you hold my life, let me have this time.
And lie here while I close my eyes, hold me through this night.
Hide me, won't you hold my weight, hold me through this night.

--- Language of Fools, Tom McRae

I caught the movie 8 Mile in the afternoon. I've seen snippets of it before, and never the full movie until today. Well, almost the full movie, because I caught more scenes which I didn't before. So, I caught the not-so-full-but- close version of the movie.

Anyway, Marshall Mathers aka Eminem broke into the scene being a white boy thrash-talking rapper. Come on, a white rapper? People gave him a time limit, but he made it. I personally feel it's all a persona only. He's not really thrash-talking. I bet behind the scenes, he's pretty calm and clear headed. He's having fun making fun of those stars who make themselves out to be the whole world. The most important is, he loves his kid. The only 'trouble' he's ever gotten into was irritating other singers, and nothing else.

He is good at what he does, and if 8 Mile was truly based on his life, then I say he deserved all that he has now.

I'm going on a trip with a couple of friends. It's going to be fun, I know it already. It is always fun ttravelinglling, and more so with friends. It's just that we all need the break, doing the work that we do, and it's a time to just chill out, have fun and take in the sights and sounds. Not to mention shopping.

One of my purpose in life now is to enjoy my work and travel to as many country as I can. That's what I really want to do.

I know how I want my life to go, but as always, it gets upset in the middle due to divine intervention, and I have to go back and think about which way my life is expected to be. Besides, it is not really my life to begin with, so cheers.... !!